May & June - Burn Out

Where has the time gone? It's almost July and I've fallen behind on updating this blog. 😞

In terms of personal updates: I've helped set up and photograph two events for Sakina Literary Society (which went really well, alhamdulillah) as well as updated the site, I'm being transferred to a new location at work, and I've been preparing for my wedding & a move! Which means I have not done very much writing, or even thinking about writing, which is both disheartening and disappointing. 

I'm burnt out for sure, but I miss writing and - more importantly - the drive to write. I miss thinking about and planning stories, but nowadays I don't feel like I have the brain space for it. I know this is pretty normal given the givens, but also I feel like I can do better. (Am I holding myself to unrealistic standards? And being too hard on myself? ...Perhaps...but ugh, life will always life and I can't let that be a reason I don't write at all!)

Alas, I only have one real update for you. Legends of Mourra Vol. 1 is ticking along at a glacial (pre-global warming) pace. I wrote half a chapter...and then decided it needed to be written in a different character's pov, and started it over. And yes, it's still the chapter on how Halah and Ilyas (and Zsa Zsa the warcat) first meet. At least I've named the city they meet in - Sadafa, the capital city of Al'Amain, a coastal kingdom just south of Mourra - the latter which is the kingdom Halah is from and where our main storyline starts. 

I'm thinking...that I would like to start doing little prompt fills again, just to keep my writing skills from rusting and also to feel like I'm creating something. My story ideas feel too big and like they require too much energy and focus and time that I can't really devote right now. Either that or I need to start getting into fanfiction again - there's nothing so energizing like comments and reviews from readers.

Anyway, that's all I have for now. I'm off to wrestle with the pervasive feeling of failure! 

​Until next time, happy reading and writing!

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